I love you so much until sometimes it physically hurts - teetering on obsession, in wonderment that I had a part in making you. I bleed out on the double-edged sword of the reasons of why you belong solely to me while I sadistically, sorrowfully and secretly bask in the pure unadulterated joy of it.
That same love knows that in this lifetime you are truly the only one whose joy can brighten my universe instantaneously and whose pain can leave a festering, smoldering scar on my soul like no other and if this pain is caused by another, leave a hate that is never EVER truly eradicated and vindicated!!!
Yes, I have dreamed and still sometimes dream of killing those who have killed even one second of your joy. I sometimes salivate at the thought, border on madness at avenging you.
The only thing that has saved them is...you.
I cannot bear the thought of even being rudimentarily forced to be away from you. .................(Hey, even subliminal, phenomenal, obsessionary love has a price, right? *wink*)
I will love you forever to infinity and a day, beyond space and time. There is nothing that will change that EVER. And, even though this physical body may pass away, the energy of my love that flowed to you, from me, thru me, ONLY for you will NEVER EVER fade.
It is your birthright, as sure as the generational name you were given and the maternal-paternal surname from where your strength comes.....and the one I will go to my grave keeping just because there are so few things in my life that were given to me without conflict.
It is the generations of obsessive love that flows thru your veins dormant and ready to spread like a venom to your seed.
................*sigh* I hope one day you are able to experience the beautiful, joyful, unrelenting, unforgiving, maddening, insatiable insanity it brings......Love, Mom
I will love you forever to infinity and a day, beyond space and time. There is nothing that will change that EVER. And, even though this physical body may pass away, the energy of my love that flowed to you, from me, thru me, ONLY for you will NEVER EVER fade.
It is your birthright, as sure as the generational name you were given and the maternal-paternal surname from where your strength comes.....and the one I will go to my grave keeping just because there are so few things in my life that were given to me without conflict.
It is the generations of obsessive love that flows thru your veins dormant and ready to spread like a venom to your seed.
................*sigh* I hope one day you are able to experience the beautiful, joyful, unrelenting, unforgiving, maddening, insatiable insanity it brings......Love, Mom
